I call this image "Wild nights", after the poem by Emily Dickinson.
Wild nights - Wild nights!
Were I with thee
Wild nights should be
Our luxury!
Futile - the winds -
To a Heart in port -
Done with the Compass -
Done with the Chart!
Rowing in Eden -
Ah - the Sea!
Might I but moor - tonight -
In thee!
This
poem has great significance to me, in large part because of its musical
context. In 1991 we moved from a small town in Maine to a small town
in Oregon. The previous two years had not been kind to us both
personally and professionally. We had moved rather suddenly from one
coast to the other, hearts breaking in all four of us as we said goodbye
to friends and drove ourselves and all of our belongings to a new home
thousands of miles away. Everything precious to Maureen and me was on that truck.
I
was in the second year of an appointment as an associate professor of
theoretical chemistry in a small college in Oregon, in wine country,
southwest of Portland. My research was off to a good start. I enjoyed my
classes, and my new colleagues encouraged me to pursue my interests
outside of the sciences. Maureen had just found a position as a
dietician at Oregon Health Sciences University. as it was then known. We
were emerging from the darkness into new schools and friendships.
I
was quite fortunate to join the Portland Symphonic Choir in its
1992-1993 season; Maureen joined the following year. The choir performed
regularly with the Oregon Symphony, at the time conducted by James
DePreist, nephew of the contralto Marion Anderson. In the usual
inexplicable resonance of the cosmos, the maestro and Maureen shared
birthdays. Singing with the symphony added a level of richness,
achievement, and personal satisfaction that was a welcome balm on the
rough edges of our souls, and the prospect of happiness that had seemed
distant only two short years earlier.
The
maestro always pointed Marion Anderson out to us. "Aunt Marion" was a
presence dressed in white, high in the upper balcony where the sound was
best. Jimmie, as he was known to all, relayed her criticisms after each
rehearsal.
The
first work performed by the choir that season was Beethoven's "Choral
Fantasy", with Garrick Ohlsson at the keyboard, the season opener and
gala concert. Garrick was a huge man, towering over all of us, kind to
all and a delight on stage. The Beethoven is an early musical sketch of
what became the fourth movement of the 9th symphony, with its choral
setting of Schiller's "Ode to Joy".
The second major work as John Adams' setting of three poems by John Donne and Emily Dickinson, "Harmonium"
"Negative Love" (by Donne)
"Because I could not stop for Death" (by Dickinson)
"Wild Nights" (by Dickinson)
On
15 April 1981, the work was premiered by the San Francisco Symphony and
Symphony Chorus, Edo de Waart at the baton. The work requires
large forces.
This 1992 production was the first performance of the work on the West
Coast after the premiere. The composer would be in attendance. Maestro
James DePreist would be conducting the orchestra, and only three
rehearsals with the orchestra.
There
was no segue between the two Dickinson poems; the music leaped from one
to another, with several intense orchestral passages. The tempi were
fast, the tessitura were very high and fortissimo, and the orchestra was
blasting away. And the music itself was challenging. The maestro had a
strategy to help keep the chorus anchored to the music: he would raise
his left hand and hold it for a full measure; there were three points in
the last movement where he did this.
Each
choral rehearsal - there were many - I left work, inhaled dinner, drove
to Portland, rehearsed for two and a half hours or more, then drove
home, then finished grading and class preparation for the following day,
working sometimes till dawn. I was sustained by the beauty of the music
and the poetry.
The
performances were thrilling. Audiences thundered their approval. The
maestro beamed and praised the entire ensemble. The composer was
pleased. The maestro said Aunt Marion was satisfied but our diction
could be better. Maureen and Greg and Kate came to one performance.
I
would hear again and again in my mind the closing lines, followed by
the soft weeping voice of the brass and the French horns:
Rowing in Eden - | Ah - the Sea!
Might I but moor - tonight - | In thee!
Here is a link to
an excerpt from the San Francisco Symphony's recording of the last
movement, with commentary by the British conductor Sir Simon Rattle.
Ah - the Sea!